I'm Here and I'm Okay.

Hi Blog! Happy Wednesday! I missed y'all! I don't know about you but the last couple of weeks have been so stressful for me. I've felt myself slowly falling back into old habits as schools getting up and running again after winter break. Life is moving so incredibly fast, and I just feel stuck. But then as I think about it deeper, I'm still alive and I'm still okay. Yea I have frustration, and I have felt like nothing was going my way. But I'm here, and I'm okay.

With life moving by so quickly, I've really been thinking about all the ways I handle my stress. As someone who has had to deal with extreme anxiety my whole life, fast paces have never been easy. And I also am human, and dealing with these battles with my own head has never been easy. As much as I try to ignore it and move on, anxiety still seems to find its way back to me every time. And I'll admit that recently it's been making me so unmotivated. Somedays I just can't find the strength to get out of bed because of it. But I'm here and I'm okay.

With unmotivation comes a lack of creativity. Everything has just been feeling like a chore lately. Whether it's school, or even writing this blog. But as I sit with you today, I realize that time is still moving forward and so why should I not move with it. Of course, getting assignments in on time should be a priority, but why am I sitting here dwelling when there is much more life to live. So many more experiences to have. So many more people to meet. And I had to realize that the only way I will get there is by sitting up and getting shit done. And you should too. Some days are going to be tough, and some days you're going to feel like nothing can go your way. But remind yourself that you are here and you are okay. And you may not even feel that way all the time (I sure don't), but the more you say it, the more it becomes a reality. So remind yourself of the things to look forward to and use that as your motivation to finish the tasks at hand. I believe in you! Have an amazing week! You can do it!