You've Got To Have Faith

Hello everyone! Happy Wednesday. This week I just don’t have a theme or general message I want to spread, instead, I’m just going to be real and honest and see where it takes me.

This week sucked. In fact, this month sucked. I absolutely hate the month of May. With the stress of school ending, finals, and than having zero motivation for anything but getting the f*ck over with it, makes me so exhausted. I’ve been struggling a lot lately with my mental health as well. I just keep seeing myself fall back into old depressive patterns and it stresses me out a ton. Do you ever just feel like you know you can be better, but you feel like you don’t have the energy to do so? Because, same. I am mentally drained and so ready for summer, y’all. I’m so ready for traveling, pool and boat days, late-night drives, and Crested Butte sunsets. And that is truly the only thing keeping me afloat right now.

The past week has really taught me about faith. Now y'all know I'm religious and all, but this type of faith isn't all about God. This is about faith in life. I will never stop believing that everything happens is for a reason, and this week was no different. I've experienced and went through some of the scariest and scarring events that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. But what truly matters is that though these terrible, horrible things occur in our life, love and faith will never die.

I've decided to take this week to realize that these relationships I have, this love and trust I've built with the people in my life. They matter more to me than anything in the world. Without my family, my friends who are like family, and even people I know but aren't as close with, I would be nothing. The gratefulness and gratitude I have towards y'all are unmatched and I am so proud to be walking through this life with y'all by my side.

To my readers. Whether you're one of my friends in life, or you found me from somewhere else, thank you. Thank you for being a part of this wonderful world along with me, and taking time out of your week to read and support my work. This is truly the most fulfilling part of my life. Seeing the joy I bring y'all, with your comments and DMs, makes me the happiest girl in the world. And I hope I can continue this little corner of the internet forever. In conclusion, you are not alone in this world ever. Remind yourself there is always something to be grateful for and always someone who loves you. And if you can't think of anyone, remember I do. Always and forever.

Have a fabulous week everybody. Good luck with finals and graduation! It's almost summer everyone! We're almost done! Love y'all. Always.